See Saw

I feel like I'm going up and down, back and forth. I'm at work. Its lunchtime. I have access to blogger. On Friday I had access for about 10 mins, then I didn't, now I do again. No doubt in a few mins it'll be snatched away from me again.

*sigh*

I didn't really realise how precious freedom was until it was taken away from me. Heheh.. although it is only blogger, its not like I'm being held back from the very basics of life, so I mustn't complain too much.

Work is the Devil's Child

Not two seconds after my last post (and luckily after I'd clicked on Miss Snark to catch up on her snarkiness) did the stupid computers at work lock me out of reading blogs.

I cant stand being limited!!!

Goddamn these internet-scared bastards.

They put two computers in the 'library' for personal use at lunchtimes (only), but then they go and limit the stuff you can look at, as though they have a right or obligation to filter the internet for you. Fucking cunts. Thats what I say. I cant stand anyone taking decisions away from me. Its like being treated like a child.. Not being able to make up your mind for yourself, and not being trusted or respected.

Drives me wild... cant you tell?

But then again, its probably just the company looking after their own arse and making sure us employees dont look at porn during work hours.

Dicks!

So, looks like I'll have to try to ignore Martin during the evenings and weekends in order to get in my blogging. Not something I want to do, but hopefully I can squeeze in the time.

I'm going to be damn busy in the next two weeks though. Gotta sort out the house this week because while we're away in NY we're having the walls in the bedroom fixed/coated to try to fix the mould problem... so we've gotta move all the furniture out. I'm skeptical that the route the estate agent/landlord is taking will actually fix the problem, but I dont have to pay for it so I dont really give a shit. I just want to be able to sleep in a mould-free bed and grow old without developing brain cancer. Does that make me selfish? Methinks not.

Bought Big Trouble In Little China on DVD today. Fucken love that film. Is Kurt Russell fucken unreal or what! I may even put him on my list*






*List of celebrities that I have permission by my husband to shag if/when an occasion arises.

His list is ten times longer than mine. Men. Hmmph! So shallow!

Work. Fucking Work.

Last week the internet access at work was updated and the bastards blocked out access to blogs/newsgroups.

I was not a happy comper (Thats my new slang work for a computer user. Aren't I clever and inventive!)

But, today it seems to be working ok. Strange. I was just starting to get myself used to the fact that I wont be able to blog at lunchtime when suddenly the damn thing started working.

I'm not complaining! I'm just treading lightly in case they take it away again.

I've just been confirming my flights for my trip to New York next week. Should be fucken excellent. Martin and I have planned out where we want to go and what we want to see, and our schedule is pretty good. Not too tight, and not too loose. And there is spare time for extra shopping. Oh, I cant wait. DSW is my favourite shoe shop, and I plan to come home with at least 5 new pairs of strappy sandals for summer, or whatever other bargains there are. No doubt all the sales will be on for winter boots to clear them out, but I'm hoping I'll be able to have first pick at the new summer ranges. Mmm... I'm going to be dreaming of shoes right up until I leave, methinks!

I'm without a book, though. I just finished The Life of Pi this morning, and I tell ya, the ending was a fucking disappointment. You read the whole book thinking that this bloke spent 7 months floating in a lifeboat on the pacific ocean with a 450 pound bengal tiger, but then at the end when he is being interrogated by the owners of the ship he was on that sunk he blabs on about how he thought the story he told with the tiger and other animals that he was stranded on the lifeboat with was just a figment of his religion-influenced imagination and that he thought it sounded better that he describe his fellow survivors as animals rather than as the people they actually were...

I was soooo pissed off. I still am. I dont know what to believe. The book leads you to believe that it was all true, but then the ending leaves you wondering.

I should have realised it was going to fuck up at the end by all the religious dribble the guy was blabbing on about at the start of the book.

Another reason why I'm not a big fan of religions. They addle the mind!

Anyway, so I'm without a book to read. I know my Mum, who is in NY, has bought me a load of books but I need something to read until then. Hmm.. only a few days though. Perhaps I could take Jerry with me in the mornings on the train to write and finish my fairy tales instead.

Yes. Sounds like a plan.

Letting Out a Breath I Didn't Know I Was Holding

What a tumultuous last few weeks it has been!!

I dont even know where to start.

Firstly, I guess, I've just finished Robin Hobb's Farseer trilogy. My head is all over the place! I absolutely loved it! At first I was a bit taken aback by the narration style, now I'm totally hooked.

I just dont know what to say.

I'm gutted that I've finished it, but I'm looking forward to starting the Tawny Man trilogy.

I'm taking a break at the moment because I need to emotionally contain myself. I tend to get lost in books far too easily!

So, I'm reading the Life of Pi. It was recommended to me by someone at work, so I thought I'd give it a shot. Also, I dont have to buy it as I'm loaning it off them, and since I have no money to even by half a book for a few weeks then it works out well. If I had nothing to read at the moment I'm sure I would put the Tawny Man trilogy on my credit card, but that is very naughty and I must not! Absolutely must not!

I've got an Amazon wish list, but I'm finding it difficult not to keep adding book upon book upon book to it. I must keep myself grounded otherwise I'll get lost in reading and wont ever write.

Speaking of writing, I was lounging outside on our newly mowed lawn over the weekend (mown by myself!) and was absolutely delighted by the company of a pugnacious little Robin who skipped and flittered about me gobbling up the worms that I'd displaced. He sparked an idea in my head for another fairy tale that I can add to my Fairy Tale book. I've got two stories now!

While Martin was doing his LAST TWO EXAMS EVER (if he doesn't fail them, of course!) I was having a picnic outside on the grass of the hotel grounds amidst the squirrells, magpies, starlings, blackbirds, robins, blue tits, and bugs. Aside from the bugs, it was fucken unreal. Nature really has a way of taking all your worries and flushing them down the toilet.

I didn't actually get to finish The Last Robin (my second fairy tale), but its all planned out and I'll have it done soon.

Now that Martin is free and wont be studying anymore I feel like a great weight has lifted off our shoulders, and I'm kind of glad that I finished the Farseer Trilogy just as he was finishing his exams. Its like a chapter put behind us now, and we're both looking forward.

This weekend is going to be great! So relaxing!

Roll on summertime!!!!!!!!!!

A Week Of Old People

The parents decended on us last week. They didn't stay with us, thankfully, because our spare room is a mess and we have no bed for them so they stayed with our distant (and quite eccentric) relatives.

As Martin was using the time off work to study, I had to be out of the house to leave him in the peace and quiet, so I hung out with the olds for most of the weekend.

MARTIN AND I HAD TUESDAY ..ooops, caps.. off work as well and in the evening we went to see Loreena McKennitt. It fucken kicked ass!! For those of you who dont know her music, you're missing out. I think she did some of the music for Lord of the Rings, although that could have been Enya. Anyway, I highly recommend her stuff. Hew new album, An Ancient Muse, is just fantastic. My other favourite of her albums is The Mask and the Mirror.

I didn't do any writing this week, although I was very inspired by the concert, but I still had a good easter even though I didn't make any progress. I did, however, get to read loads of the latest book I'm reading, Royal Assasin, and I'm just pages from the end. I'll have to buy the next book on my way home tonight. I can dawdle a bit coz I'm leaving early to get home in time to pick up the car from Kwik Fit. (New exhaust).

So, I didn't get up to much over the weekend. Just ate lots of chocolate, and tried not to go insane by being around the oldies for too long. We did go to a boot sale on Sunday, which was good. I spent about 45p and came home with three items, so that was a bit of a bargain. Then we went out for dinner Sunday night with Martin's parents as well. The stupid pub/restaurant fucked up our table. I specifically requested a table inside the dining room (which is a really nice room, great atmosphere), but when we got there they had us set up to sit in the bar area right next to where the waitresses flutter about.

Fuck that.

I moaned and they made the people who were sitting at our table in the dining room move. The stupid pub shouldn't have been greedy in trying to have two seatings for dinner.

But it all turned out fine in the end.

Not much else went on... had a lazy day yesterday. Read for most of it. I know I should have been writing, but I had a migraine come on... its still battering my head to pieces now.

I'm going to go and get some chocolate. Even if that doesn't fix it it'll make me feel better.